2 Corinthians 12:9-10 But he said to me ” My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness”. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. NIV
It took me many years to accept my list of disabilities, and many years of therapy. I had anger that by body (borrowed tent) was degenerating at a rapid rate, wich caused my early retirement from Social Work, wich I loved, I love helping others, especially those who otherwise can not advocate for themselves, I was their voice.
I felt as though I had lost my purpose, my independence. I kept thinking and talking about things I USED to be able to do. My therapist told me that I am not that past person, I am today’s person. Today’s person has disabilities and chronic pain, and that if I stay stuck in the past I would not be able to move forward. Turns out she was right. I went threw a 3 year long major depression, I was miserable, even though I was reading my Bible daily, and praying.
Turns out That’s exactly what I was doing, Just reading and praying without developing my personal “WALK” with God. Somehow during this time, and I believe it was the Holy Spirit, I like to say, smacking me on the head with a rolled up newspaper, saying snap out of it child, walk with us!!
so that’s exactly what I did, I had always believed in God from little up and went to church. But I didn’t walk with him. I soon began to crave God, wanting more teaching, praising him. I began to develop my personal walk with him, I continue to crave more of God today, I NEED HIM. I soon came to realize, I can’t do “life” on my own, I can’t control the world around me. So I surrendered to Him. I’m so happy and joyful that I did.
I am, joyful, peaceful, calm, excited for where he is going with my life. Kind of like an adventure, i’m excited to see where he takes me. I’m excited to see and go where he calls me.
I’m a work in progress…. AND, I AM DIFFERENTLY ABLED!
John 16:33 ” I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart I have overcome the world”.
Thank you Friends